Early morning! The first time feel like powerless, impasse and useless. The big question is what have i borned for? Since i was born to this world what's the purpose to make me keep living, what do i living for. Till now i'm still useless for anyone, anything! People eat to live, live to bring useful to everybody. Me? Live for nothing? No! I do have my own life purpose. But! It's a big " but" when nothing get consider done even done after near 40 years life!


Have everything, but at the other sidebar is abyss where i could be back to the dust, the faint border between successful and abyss makes me afraid off making decision to take turn. Feels like running on running machine, moving in the stoodstill world, wanna jump out but fear of falling keeps me keep running.


On top of these! The big word is abyss still being hang up in front of my life. Need something or somebody hand to take me out.


( to be continue)